yay! thesis is finally over. except for some revisions. pero naman, pa-graduatin nyo na kami!

hayyy.. can't wait for xmas vacation.

i've been getting sooooo much hugs these days. and i love it! :)

gusto ko na mag xmas vacation! i sooooo want some break.

currently playing: do you believe in magic?

yes, i do. sometimes. you do have to believe magic happen. lalo na kung alam mo namang may ginawa ka. pero di lang nakayang abutin. parang minsan sa show, kung kulang sa rehearsals... minsa nasasabi mo na lang "we can do magic!"

awwww... i miss performing. miss ko na umarte. sumayaw at kumanta. kahit chuwariwariwap lang. hahaha. the fun roles. kahit maliit enjoy pa rin.

it's been months since i had breakfast! a real breakfast. waking up and actually, breakfast is served! sandwich, ham, egg and cheese with hot sauce. hahaha i don't usually have breakfast especially since i began living in a dorm or condo. i usually wake up just in time for class forgetting about breakfast but only waiting for the period to end and have lunch! dinner at merci's chow or houseblends. i'm living with ria and chame! (live-in) we're at ria's house doing our thesis. shucks. puyatan na 'to. but i'm enjoying our stay. walang tigil sa lamon. grabe.

then after lunch, after we had fried porkchop and rice... feeling ko dahil sa taba, i mean pork, na-high blood ata ako. my head started throbbing. kahit anung kain ko, meryenda: pizza, baked macaroni.(ah! we went to puregold, did some shoppping ng katol. as in weird, we were a threesome buying KATOL. hahaha different brands. may baygon, lion-tiger, crocodile, pest-off, elephant katol, and royal katol.) and to satisfy my craving for ice cream, bought caramel banana ice cream! yey! then again, i forgot to buy marshmallow. awww...unsatisfied craving
again.

still the headache part. throbbing pain in my skull. and a migraine i suppose. i slept on the couch while ria and chame we're doing the competitor part. i couldn't contain the pain. they let me sleep. thanks guys!heheh :) while i was lying, preparing to rest, i felt my hands were twitching. basta some part of my bodies were twitching voluntarily. weird. naiisip ko tuloy may something wrong sa akin. symptom ng kung anu. hahaha watching too much HOUSE. awwww... i miss watching house. tas nagising nako. umulan ng malakas. ang lamig!! ang sarap! at saktong nagising ako, eto ang pinag-uusapan nila chame at ria. and it goes like this or SOMETHING LIKE THIS: (HAHAHA)

"pano kung may brand na katol na palaka? what would it be called then?"
"PALAKATOL" nyahahaha.
tagline: "(belat)ISANG DILA KA LANG" rrrbit. rrrbit.

and i miss my roomies 1405. si pampits, tabs, dyogs and chubibs! :(
and i miss joshua.

sorry alon. thesis muna. haha

because of staying too long at the library. and getting sooooo cold. ang lamig sobra sa lib. at wala kaming ibang ginawa ni ria kundi ang maghanap ng mga libro. and you're probabaly wondering.. asan si chame? hehehe sick. love sick. joke. may sipon.

had a late lunch. as in sa oras ng snack ako kumain ng kine-crave kong food: fried tofu and rice.

im getting addicted to HOUSE. the tv series. with doctors and patients with strange sicknesses. ang oh yeah, witty lines. very witty lines. makes me smile. at cute na doctor!! hahah si dr.wilson and dr.chase.

since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;
wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world
my blood approves,
and kisses are a better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don't cry
-the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids' flutter which says
we are for each other: then
laugh leaning back in my arms
for life's not a paragraph
And death i think is no parenthesis


---since feeling is first, e.e. cummins

since feeling is first
who pays any attention
to the syntax of things
will never wholly kiss you;
wholly to be a fool
while Spring is in the world
my blood approves,
and kisses are a better fate
than wisdom
lady i swear by all flowers. Don't cry
-the best gesture of my brain is less than
your eyelids' flutter which says
we are for each other: then
laugh leaning back in my arms
for life's not a paragraph
And death i think is no parenthesis


---since feeling is first, e.e. cummind

feeling the white sand
covering my fragile feet,
the water splashes
making me fall,
stand up and fall again.

i stand up.
picked a handful of sand
and threw it in the water.

no i'm not mad.
just wasted.


* * * * * * * * *

to weeep is to laugh out loud
and crying is the same as smiling
after you got broken.
you jump high to stay grounded
the next time you fall.
and you love and hate
and love again
because you're scared of
knowing the truth
that you are not loved.

i'm so full now. haha
just had vanilla ice cream for dessert. naglunch naman ako, tocino. sarap!

we're wearing the same white shirt and striped pants. si chame at ako! the only difference is i'm wearing a darker shade of brown, chame's wearing a light one. and o yeah, we're wearing diferent sweatshirts.

i'm not yet done reading Sputnik Sweetheart. but i'm almost. one last chapter. pretty weird. i actually don't know what the characters want with their lives. and now that i'm almost finish with it, i really don't have any clue on how it would end. keeps me guessing what really happened with them. weird talaga e! especially with the girl who suddenly disappeared. i'll read na nga lang. so that i'll know.

i feel like vomiting. i haven't actually had enouhg sleep. like THE eight hours or atleast 5 hours of sleep. milenyo visited us (1405 roomies together with the 2109ners) yesterday. brown-out! simula lunch hanggang kaninang mga 9am siguro. at, walang tubig sa burg. sa lahat pa ng kamalasan..ang ma-stranded sa burg ng walang kuryente, binabagyo at WALAng tubig!! we were really stuck sa condo. oh yeah, we have A LOT of instant noodles to feed us, BUT. remember no electricity. no electricity means no hot water equals no food. crap. and no elevator. so we all had to go up and down 16 floors when we need to eat and buy something the nearest store. baha nga pala sa estrada.

watched a tale of two sisters sa condo nila ike.
pagbalik namin sa condo, wala pa ring ilaw. hmmm... so its a candle lit party. buti na lang naka-charge na kami lahat. except pampits' laptop. pero may music. kami lang ata sa bung fourteenth floor ang buhay na buhay. with music i mean. and yosi (i don't smoke, my friends do) and empe. haha kaya may hangover pako. medyo kanina. nahilo ako e. pero mas naunang nakatulog si josh, then haps. tas kinulit ko pa si ces sa bago niyang "lovelife".hahaha at si pam...ewan. trying to get over someone. o may ayaw lang maalala.
basta ako. masaya naman. BUM pero masaya. cheesy na kung cheesy. but it was really worth spending the whole day/night stranded but bonding with your friends. getting dizzy. thank god walang sumuka. kasi alam ng lahat na walang tubing. it would have been really messy and stinky. eeeewwww.

"come on and get me get me...." ng paulit paulit. LOVE you pam! kung sakali mang mabasa mo 'to. ang kulit mo lang talaga.
may kulang pala sa roomies..si CHEYlo. got stuck sa bahay nila sa qc. wala rin namang kuryente.hahaha

***
I want to live forever
Inside the nights and days.
Wishing on a silver cloud,
Crawling across the moonbeams.
A summer night in heaven
Between the stars and waves.
Race across the old bonfire;
Trample on my heartbeat.

I wanted to turn you on
My favorite song.
Wanted to be near you
But somebody owns you now.

I love you with a fire,
Ablazing till times end
But what good is a heart
When it shudders to speak.
I guess it's too late now.

"I wanted to turn you on
My favorite song.
Wanted to be near you
But (of course) somebody owns you now.
(And) I tried to live somehow
Somebody owns you now"

^^not my favorite song. but has been playing over and over again sa phone ko. la lang. naaadik ako sa kantang un ngayon.

hearing the song blackbird in the morning. kahit medyo late nako dumating ng office. (10am that is!) makes you feel so relaxed.
ang uminom ng nestea iced tea ICE.
it's raining outside and it's cold here in the office. either naka-jaket ang lahat o may cold. brrr..
listening songs from my phone,
finally! i'm almost-ALMOST finish with the book i've been reading for about a month now: Never Let Me Go, Kazuo Ishiguro.
next book Virgin Suicides

waking up in the morning. taking a bus going to work.
9am nako umalis ng condo kanina. if what i expected happened, 930 or 045 nasa office nako. well, i was wrong! as i have said, late na nga ko kanina. wala namang nagsabi na late nako, pero basta. hmmm.. i should have known better: expect the unexpected, next time alison. next time ok?



^missing the beach. :(

okay. so there are certain firsts in life...
and this one would be my first livejournal. hahaha. nothing new i guess because i'm still figuring out what to do with this.
like i'm having a hard time what lay-out i would use. sana lang alam ko ang gagawin ko!

and i'm writing this right in ojt place...another first. first actual job in an ad agency.
and i'm having a headache. too much time in front of the pc.
and yead, i'm cold. it's cold here in the office. that's why i never leave the condo without my jacket. by 5pm mamamatay na ung aircon dito sa office.